and living like this is just a lost cause now
but this lost cause isn't one worth fighting for - not anymore
it's not like i can help it
i'm so sorry
i shouldn't be so selfish in leading people on because i care about them so much and when i'm about to break down none of them even notice
it'll be okay
i may or may not survive
but it won't make a difference anyway
i'm sorry that this is how it had to be
it wasn't up to me
