i think

"i love you" is a way too overused phrase.
it is only validated in the way that "i love you" and "i am in love with you" are two very different things.
but in this case, i love you.
and i am in love with you too.
don't forget.

you be my biggie i'll be your little kim

i'm obsessed with unhealthy things.
"i wanna wrap you around the world"
that's just how things work.
sometimes i wish i could watch myself from the outside. see how it really is i've become such a mess.
i promise to be there if you promise not to be.
don't forget to tell me everything's not going to be alright before i fall asleep.
our daily rituals are just the things keeping us sane.
i haven't done mine in ever.
if there was such a god he would only lust in the ones who deserve nothing and feed off the pity of the ones who deserve it all.
we're just candles with wics that are too short to be relit.
if life can get you high, why can't death?
you've got that corporate bless, wake up, shower, dress, work, eat, sleep. anyone with anything to say about it is wrong.
you wear the same outfit every day because you are the only state of same-ness surrounding them all.
without it they'd be going insane.
i think you stalk me because you're copying me.
jealousy is the wonderful gift we all recieve.
lose your train of thought for awhile. it's time for some car crashes.
chocolate never tasted so bitter.
if you knew the truth you'd be offended.
lying is the most fun a girl can have while breaking their own hearts.

smash the mirror

if this is my sanctuary, you are my mind.
if i can be alive, you are invincible.
watching the sky is like reinventing yourself.
the clouds passing by are the old habits you had.
you still miss them, you still have them.
but they're not really there anymore.
not really.
"everything i love about you is a mess"
i'll be your "one and lonely"
don't mind if i'm not there when you wake up.
you were just a figment, anyway.
i still love you though.
obsessions vs. lust
love vs. best friends
i swear to be the one who completely understands you
just give me the chance, i'll give you my life
youaremyobsessionlustlovebestfriend.
andwithoutyou,mylifewouldend.

this ain't a scene

i wish i could run out of the house, and run and run and run until i can't run anymore.
and then i'd sit on a bench in some unknown city and just cry until my throat was raw and my eyes were dry.
my fingers are sick of roaming over the same letters, same words.
my mind is sick of myself.
if america wasn't about "freedom" i would ask if i could be free.
i'm more numb now than i thought i ever could be.
it's not me typing these words anymore, it's the voice[s] inside my head that tell me what to do, what to say, what to think, how to act.
can't i just be myself?
what happened to me?

&

it's pretty fucking obvious, i'm a wreck.
i miss wearing rings on my fingers, bracelets on my wrists.
i miss how things were.
it seems the past is all i think about anymore.
all i've ever thought about.
won't that, eventually, mean i'm thinking about the past, how i was thinking about the past?
i'm hoping that was the way it was meant to be.
i haven't had this insomnia or dizzyness in awhile.
welcome back. we missed you.
i'm spinning out of control in more ways than one.
if it isn't your pretty eyes lighting up the sky, it's too dark to see.
too dark and we're alone again.
don't mind me, i'm just chaotic.
don't mine me, i'm just paranoid.
i still kind of love you, though.
kind of.

it's almost like

you're my own little journal.
i create you to destroy you and so on.
we only live for what we don't want.
"i told you so"s against "i know you are, but what am i?"s
my heart has a headache and my head has a heartache.
you're the only lie that brings any truth anymore.
tell me you love me.
tell me you hate me.
maybe not.
we still love you but not in the same way. we still want to be you but only because you're a disaster.
car-crash hearts.
let's run away.
i can't live without you but you can't live with me.
you've been next to me all along but i still miss you.
i don't have a hart or sole.
it's over now, but later.
don't move too fast.